Desiring colour

My life feels a bit like this picture at the moment, frozen, stuck in time, waiting to warm up and burst forth into new brighter colours. I'm not living my life in black and white though, it's in colour with laughter and friends and doing my bit for my community. I'm just ready to emerge and burst forth in full vibrant colour. Once I achieve some of my smaller goals it'll happen. Study and betterment is the key to all of it and finding a way to make that happen while keeping the day to day stuff ticking over has so far eluded me. I'm grateful and thankful for all I have I just need to find a way to make it become more. I'm tired of doing what three people do to make the day happen. I'm unsure of how to go about making that change without having to first go through more of the same. It'll happen though, at some point in the not too distant future. Maybe you could help me with finding a way to do that. You here stories of people who ask for money on here and say they want to make a million dollars, and they get it. Do you think that really happens? I don't want a million, just enough to make a change, someones spare change could do that. If I ended up with more than I needed I'd pass it on to someone else in my position.